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So 2006 is gone, eh? Good riddance. Not really, I'm just glad it's a new year.
2006
was a relatively hard year for me. Spring semester I didn't do very
well and had to leave school again. 2006 brought the 1st anniversary of
Pat's death. It also brought Daniel's and my 1 year anniversary. I got
engaged in January. 2006 brought the death of my great-grandma as well
as another good friend. I got to see someone I hadn't seen in about 6
years. I re-met someone (via facebook and myspace) that I was good
friends with in Millville, Massachusetts when I was 7. Fall brought
decent grades for once. I joined AOII (which I STILL have not told my
mother about). I had a car accident where I totaled my car. I got a new
car (which in my opinion is a piece but whatever). I got to be closer
with my friend and big Jenny. I met this awesome girl named Leisl who
is also an AOII. I got to know Megan, who I love, another sister. I got
screwed by Sears, and I'll tell ya, it didn't feel too good. I found
another person from my past in Milford, Massachusetts via LJ, totally
random but cool. It's cool to find out about the goings-on in his life.
I got to go to the beach twice in the summer, once to the Outer Banks,
once to St. Augustine. I got to go skiing for the first time in 11
years, and I didn't fall! I got pneumonia, for the 3rd damn time in my
life. I learned that I can love Target, but I sure don't like working
there.
So that's my year, in no particular order. Meh. | | |
| I am......NOT kicked out of Coe!!! Hoooooraaaaaaaaaaay! This is one of
the first semesters at Coe that I have not gotten a D in a class, yay!
I got an A (Latin, cuz I rock like that), an S (Film Festival, no real
grades but he said I'd have had an A), a C- (Management, better than
the D I thought I was gonna get since I failed 2/3 tests), a C+
(African Lit) and a B- (Spanish, I didn't turn in one thing that was a
big grade nor did I turn in like 3 homeworks). I'm pretty damn proud of
myself. You would be too if you were me.
Life is good again.
Christmas
is in 4 days. I'm a greedy child. I want my presents NOW!! I did give
Daniel his present early since he'd hurt his back right before I got
here and it would give him something to do while he was laying down, I
got him a black Nintendo DS. He gave me an iSkin for my iPod which I
love. It's BLUUUUUUUUUUE. | | |
| So tonight we fought. Hard. Not physical. But still.
He's playing mind tricks--saying things then later acting like he never said them at all, quite convincingly I must say.
The things he says are so hurtful. They cut deep. Calling me names, saying that I'm basically a whore, that he hates me.
I'm a bitch, a tease, I make him sick to touch or think about touching. He hates me and so does everyone else. The biggest disappointing thing he's ever done in the eyes of his family is stay with me. That I'm a liar, a user.
All I can do is clench up into a little ball and cry. That's all I can think to do. It hurt so much to hear. He says these things when we fight, almost every time that we fight. And they hurt so much. Yet I can't leave him. I don't want to. I won't.
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| I've been meaning to update. I have. I swear. I'm a horrible person, I know. But I've just been soooo damn busy. Like seriously.
So...what's happened in the last month? Couldn't tell ya. No really, I don't know that I remember. I have worked. And worked and worked and worked. Oh, I got a new car. It's a burgundy '99 Saturn SL1. It's an automatic, which I HATE. Oh well. Daniel flew up to help me get the car and hang out with me. We got a Nintendo Wii. I had to work that day but Daniel waited in line from noon til midnight (I joined him around 9pm), he was 5th in line, awesome. Then he helped me drive home for Thanksgiving. First time I've been home in 6 years. 6 YEARS!! Crazy. I met Daniel's Dad's side of the family. So that was interesting. Took me forever to drive back to Cedar Rapids. Had to work the day after Thanksgiving. Oh, got a new laptop when I was home. Got initiated into AOII before all this. Not much else new.
Finals week is next week. I have 2 finals Friday. I'm gonna be so dead by Monday. Ski trip Wednesday and Thursday, yeah buddy.
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| So it's Rose Week for my sorority, ie, the week before initiation. I
initiate on Sunday and I'm super stoked. We FINALLY got our paddles
last night no thanks to some drama that went along with trying to get
them. Long story, I'll tell it later. Anyway. We got those at our New
Member meeting last night which was really long and emotional since we
had a candlepassing. We'd had a candlepassing right after our all
member retreat a few weeks ago, so I knew what to expect. It was good
though. This morning we had our new member breakfast. Thank God they
don't do now what they did back when Kate joined lol. Our bigs come get
us at 6:15 to meet at 6:30 nowadays. But back then they'd come get you
at 4am and not tell you that part. I knew cuz Kate's big told me to
warn me. I got the Super AOII award. Awesome. We don't have anything
til Thursday night. I've gotta go to work this morning. I don't wanna.
Oh and I went out and got Guitar Hero 2 this morning. Yeah buddy.
Oh, and I got contacts yesterday. FINALLY.
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